believerinlife

I don’t know if I have told you this, but for the last three years I suppose, I have been questioning the notion of life through relationships. How in the old system that code works. What is the significant reason we find that specific partner in life? 

For many of us I believe, love and relationships is the key to understanding our emotions, our fears, our limitations. And then we reflect what we learn from that into life. We are THE form of life that we get to experience first handedly, all through the span of our life times. So… for me, self exploration and the observation of my relationships is the source into understanding how life functions. 

Including myself, many people around me has been engaged in the relationships where opposites attracted each other. Everything in the system as we know of it is, or rather has been, based on duality. Yin and yang, black and white, day and night, hot and cold. To perceive the value, the necessity of one thing you were supposed to experience the opposite value of that. To enjoy the warmth of the sunlight on your skin, you have to experience the sensation of a snowflake melt on your nose. To realize the value of life, you have to experience the loss of a loved one. You have to be lost to be found. 

And hence, we were programmed somehow to find that other person that completes us, just like yin and yang. And, ultimately, our lives would have a meaning. But then, in real life, that opposite person keeps pushing our buttons, triggers our fears, limitations… and it becomes a challenging journey. Yes, I know, they are someway serving our growth and evolution as well. With them and through them we face our deepest corners and may be, hopefully, realize what we really are made of. But in the end, there is this constant effort in life to communicate, to connect, to preserve that relationship. Yes… we all go through those stages in our growth. To acknowledge our own truth, our essence… we go through those challenging relationships in life. 

But… lets enjoy this idea for a minute. This, I have been wondering and asking the universe for a while now. What happens if we find someone who is excatly like us, someone that when we converse, time does not exist anymore, we are tapped into each other from such frequency that everything we talk about opens up an other door in us, a bigger realization of life. Someone who knows our words, our dreams, our perception of life and lives with that truth in them. Someone where there is no effort but pure growth. What happens then? Would we be going against current of this reincarnative system called life? Will it be sustainable? 

I believe it is possible! I believe that if we choose to, if we invest enough time and energy into our personal growth, to hear that voice called intuition… then life does become a journey. If we act from that voice with belief and love and nothing else, may be it is possible to live a life out of that duality. May be you can be happy and full and grateful everyday. May be whatever turmoil comes your way, you can perceive that as a blessing, a teaching and grow with that… and in time, be grateful for that. May be you can get through a divorce with love and that person does become a nice friend, a companion in life. May be you can choose life and live yourself freely with love. 

May be it is possible to be effortless in life and be an observer when required. May be you can manifest your own life, and make your dreams tangible. May be it is possible…

I am a believer in life… so yes, I still believe… 

There are many transitions in our lives. We live many versions of ourselves in one life. And in each one of them we grow, we expand our horizons, we come one step closer to our truth. Or, I hope we all do.

I am at a transition in my life. Everything about me is changing, my understanding of life is evolving… one may say, I might be finding myself. What I am really made of? What excites me in life? What creates passion in me to be creative? I am in a time that I really want to produce, put an input into life. If I dare, change may be the perception of life in people’s minds. Make it a little free, a little real, a little sustainable.

Let me give you a secret; life can be fun. You can actually choose to find joy in whatever you create. Be someone whom you might even get inspired by.

And once you find yourself… I guess its time to kick your shoes off “be” that, without exception, just be purely you. Nowadays I spend my days barefoot. We are creating a lifestyle, I am being a part of a life works club, where you can be just you and do what you really want to do. Be content with what you already are and in the meantime be connected to those people who resonates with you. Whom you would like to learn from; eat, work and grow with each other.

Thats what we are building now… A community of like minded people, our people…And you know what? I always dreamed of that life where I can be me, truly! Be so happy with that.
And hence today… I am living a life on barefoot. Life is magical I might say, truly mystical even. 

One day… Your whole perception of your future, your dreams change in one day!

A while a go, very dear friend of mine was diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease and have been having a hard time dealing with the reality that him, such a strong and solid being in life, might have to deal with the consequences of this sickness in his future life. And all I could tell him was that; today is all we have, we dont know what tomorrow holds… We might leave this world before all that he fears becomes a reality in his life… And today… My words are proving to be right.

Yesterday I had dreams, big and amazing dreams that I wanted to accomplish in this world. Yesterday, I was looking forward to the months to come to create the impact I wanted to create in my country, to build my dreams. And today,I dont know what tomorrow holds… Today I have worries about my country, about my daughters future in this country… Today, my dreams seems a step further away from me…

But they still remain as my reality, I still believe in the future I want to create. I still believe in the good in people. I still feel I can touch my dreams. 

Last year as I was watching the refugees coming to my country or trying to flee to Europe, all I could pray for was that someday if I I leave my country let it not be because I have to but because I choose to…

And today… I hope my prayers were heard! I hope human race will wake up and see how magnificent life is. We are all one​; no religion, no race, no country can define our humanity. We are humans and we have the power to change, to create the future we want to live in! And I still believe… 

Sometimes unexpectedly, just when your soul needs it, you find yourself in heaven.

Today… I am in heaven….

I believe in visions. And when you hear your vision, respect it and have the belief in your soul to manifest it, then you create magic in this world.

One of my dearest friends, against all odds, believed in that calling and he created this magnificent dreamland that I have been yearning for. Yes, you may call this place “glamping”, a new concept of hospitality that has been taking over the world.

If you are one of those people who has been looking for a home that resonates with your soul surrounded by like minded people that you might call your community, I believe today, I am there, I am in heaven.

There is sunlight and a little breeze washing over my skin. I hear crickets and smell the nature. I can taste the raw taste of the nature, the orange in my vodka is freshly squeezed out of a tree here… Everywhere I look, I see not only a part of me in it, but also a part of you in it… That down to earth, sustainable life style that I have been yearning for is surrounding me. There is a deep thought and intention behind everything here. The intention to create heaven on earth… Yes, I believe we create heaven on this earth. But sometimes we need good storytellers that can evoke hope and belief in our souls. And here I am, with one of the most magnificent storytellers. Don’t get me wrong. He is a reserved being, doesn’t prefer many words to communicate, but he chooses this vision to communicate his soul with the world.

If you are reading these lines and somehow can feel the gaps in between my words, feel the frequency in my soul… Then I believe, this is your home also.

Soon, very soon, we will be conducting some amazing workshops here… And if you are interested, wherever you are in this world, please let me know… We would love to have you among us.

Let us create magic in this world… This lifeline is worth much more that just existing… Lets live! 

I think one of the most challenging things in our lives is to get out of our patterns, old systems we have been so much accustomed to. In those situations, and I am sure we all face those moments in time wether we like it or not, the only tool I can use is to focus on that initial feeling, that voice within me.

The brain can find many reasons to why you should commit to that old system, it can play endless games to keep you in that accustomed circumstances. Fear is the most essential tool it uses trying to pull you back, question the decisions you have made. Fear of being alone, fear of facing the upcoming challenges in your life, fear of making a mistake. And the heart… Oh that heart which has so many dreams, can still try to convince you to a different reality that your soul is searching for. They both can be misleading actually.

For me… I have been lucky enough to work on my self, to see my self… And once you are in touch with your being, then there is no more contradiction left. You become more solid when faced with such challenges. That voice which raises in your soul becomes your reality. I trust that voice within me which is calm and constant. Make sure the decisions you make are only for your wellbeing and then.. trust the system. This universe has an amazing system, providing us opportunities to see those pictures we deny to see, fight with ourselves not to see. But life provides endless opportunities to get out of those patterns, habits which we are not actively ourselves anymore. And if we are fearless enough to trust the system then I believe, may be, we can create heaven on earth.

So, yes, that voice within me I trust, I trust that is my reality… And in spite of all the games my mind tries to play, I am committed to myself and nothing else more. I choose to live a life that I get to experience my true self, manifest my dreams and create magic in this world. 

I have an ultimate dream…. An ending to my book, my life. My life is my book. I always wished to lead a life that is worth writing about or write a book worth living. And when I think about it, I think I have an amazing life worth writing about. And if Ferzan Ozpetek could direct a movie out of that, if I could live a life inspiring enough for him to make a movie out of… oh well, that is a life worth living for. Then I serve my ultimate purpose to come into this life… to live in true sense… unattached and awake and free.

The end scene of this movie is set in a garden. I am sitting on a long table, under the trees, surrounded by my community… my 150 people. (Yes, 150 people… I will get into that in detail in another blog). Those people are my people. The people that are vibrating at the same frequency with me. And I am at that long table surrounded by sincere and loving eyes… there is no pretence but pure goodness and sincerity. There is lightness and contentment in our hearts. Lit by candlelight in a beautiful garden, where the smell of the nature lingers in your mouth as you take a sip from your wine. You perceive beauty only. Love is tangible and you can literally touch it.

This is my ultimate picture. But lately there is magic in my life. And there are many occasions in my life that I look around me and realize that we are creating that community. All the good people coming together around us and we are embarking on a journey to create better life, a bigger reality. Then I realized that we are building that table every day in one way or another. Almost every day, at one point in time, I find myself saying ‘’this is as good as it gets.’’ There is pure gratefulness and respect to life. And then, amazingly enough, the next day, something else happens that even tops the experience before. If we open our eyes, we might realize that we are manifesting our own reality… and then start shaping our lives.

Yes… I will write that book sometime soon. This life is worth sharing for. And if I can touch, inspire one being with my journey, awaken hope in them into the system… then that is a life worth living. Utterly living fearlessly.

Its wierd times these days, I am growing everyday and its the first time in my life that change is happening rapidly. In only 3 months I have realized many hidden aspects of my existence, somehow I have expended, my vision expended.

When we face a challenge, we can choose to get through it, literally as if passing through a tunnel. The good thing about tunnels is that, there is a beginning and an ending. There will sunshine again, you will be out of the tunnel eventually. Bearing this in mind, when you are in that tunnel, try to become an observer and watch and evaluate all those humanly feelings. If you can, do not associate yourself with those fluctuating emotions, just pass through them, observe, and reach the sunlinght at the end. BELIEVE that there is a sunshine in the end, let that be your compass in the dark. Believe in the change. Nothing is stagnant in life. And if you choose to be the observer rather then the victim, you become an active participant, learn and grow during that journey.

You are here to experience and become what you initially was. That is the whole purpose if this journey. 

Couple weeks ago, I have attended one of the most inspirational yoga workshops at Cihangir Yoga. Sienna Sherman’s presense was genuine and authentic in every way. During her session she gave elevated emphasis on san kalpa.

San kalpa is your calling, your reason of operating, why you feel the necessity to live, the pull in your soul towards your reason of being. It was an awakening, thought provoking workshop in every way.

During the workshop, when she asked us about what our san kalpa is, I was a caught a little off guard. i haven’t attended her class on the first day and was still a little disconnected from her teachings then the rest of the people. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in. And observed that there were only 3 words in me, beating with my heart; to touch, to inspire, to change. Then I realized, this was my san kalpa, why I was a yoga teacher, why I was writing, why I was living. Not only to teach those to the others but if possible, embody them… Simply walk the talk and be THAT, that I believe we all are. I owe this to myself. In my classes, in my blogs, in my words, in my life… if possible, I love to tickle people, tickle their souls, their hidden desires, their dreams… I believe if I am sincere and good and present enough, may be I can find that angle that would inspire them. May be they could realize that there is an other possibility in life, a different perspective. That there is a wider, much bigger, much happier angle in life.

And when you touch people this way, you get a chance to infuse under their skin. They literally can feel and accept you somehow. And when you are inside, then this is the time to drop a seed to reveal the “truth” in them.

The san kalpa is a seed for the truth to grow. Once planted, they just have to grow, that is their nature. And when they grow, the soul grows along with it. And in time your reality starts to shift, becoming more brighter and bigger. No matter if you are a believer or not, that one seed has the potential to make the biggest shift. I teach for the possibility of planting that seed… To touch, to inspire, to awaken! 

I believe that one seed planted in one soul will generate the biggest shift in the world. And that is the future… The future I believe in.  

I love watching outside from the car, observing the people passing by, the scenes shifting into magic sometimes. I think this, what we feel in that state of mind, takes us back to our childhood. The times when our brain is so young and unclogged with unnecessary opinions, beliefs, duties, responsibilities that life truly becomes a journey. With a fresh, loving, growing perception of life, living totally at the present moment.

Today, I gave myself a gift of which I think I have deserved highly. I am on my own, heading to enjoy the day on my own.

Just like when we were younger and all we thought was “hmmm, what do i want to do now? Who do i want to hang out with?” And nothing more… The day would pick up itself on its own and you would just flow with time, do not question anything. The times where you truly realized that you are one of the travelers and life is amazing. The times where our worries were much more lighter and we never realized that because it was our reality by then.

I am at that state of mind today, riding in the car, listening to old 80s songs. (Yes, cheesy love songs included, but let me tell you, they are all happy and uplifting:)) Today I am letting myself be that girl that I have so long ago forgotton. But today is much more different. Today, I am wiser, I am more aware of what I am made of, I have a bigger dream that is worth perceiving. Today I am more alive than that girl. And the best part of it is, I can easily tap into her energy and perceive life from that perspective, be her for a while. I know her and she is in me all time!

While I was watching the scenes change by from the car, I suddenly realized that I have become her! I am just like her but its only me now, I am listening to that tiny voice within me only, I am flowing with life.

Lift your heads from your iphones, computers. Clear your minds from your worries, your responsibilities. All will be there when you come back. Nobody is going anywhere. Life will be fine without you for a while. Ask yourself where you would rather be, who you would be spending your hours with right NOW. And give yourself that gift, go and do that. Be that person for a couple of hours. Re-member that being within you who is so free.

And since we are on this topic, come and join us in JointIdea Arnavutkoy on Thursday nights. We are having amazing meditation sessions, cleaning ourselves from all those clusters I have mentioned above, getting one step closer to the truth, adding more goodness to the universe. Come and join us if you like, we would be honored. The details are in the link…

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As I was laying at the beach, a branch was washed up by the shore. And with each wave, it was carried back into the ocean and back again to the shore. Back and forth. And this same branch, every time when it was washed along the shore, it revealed a different perspective, a different angle of its presence for us to perceive. Calmly resting on the sand, patiently waiting for the next wave to carry it onto an other journey, to the unknown.

We all are on a journey of our own and from time to time, we face the turmoils of life… With each challenge we too are washed up against a shore, and what others perceive of us at that moment in time is from which angle we were left at the shore by that wave… Although we are intact and same as before, the current situations leaves us to be perceived in one dimension,and hence, guiding us to act in a particular way.

If and only if we can perceive the other not bounded with what we see, but how we feel about them, then may be we can accept and love them as they are. Then may be their current state of mind becomes insignificant. And may be, just may be, our acceptance and love can shift the way they perceive their current status, and realize what they actually are, not define themselves with that current state of mind but expand their horizon.

The reality is however, we are this amazing branch, shaped by the nature, the creation itself. If we could only be that branch and respect whatever that is, as is and leave ourselves to the ocean, respecting its magnificent energy, its truth… Then life may not be that hard, it actually may become a fulfilling journey in the end.