2015

A new year! Now, that is one thing worth celebrating ­čÖé Ok, I accept… I generally love celebrations but not everything is worth celebrating for me…
Birthdays, for sure! I think the day a soul has made that decision to come to the world and experience life within a human body, with all these human emotions, voluntarily decided to go all through that karmic challenges is a big deal for me. And hell yeah, that courage is worth celebrating!
And, New Year… Call me sentimental, childish, and romantic, whatever you like… But New Year brings hope to us all no matter how pessimistic we may be. It carries this hope for a better tomorrow, this promise of what we may be if we choose to be!
So here it goes; my wishes for this year to come are….
May we be happy in our skin, love our existence with no self bullying, accept and love what we are as is.
May we have soulful connections with the ones around us, accept them as they are with no “what ifÔÇÖsÔÇŁ and appreciate their existence in our lives.
May we step out of our comfort zones and challenge ourselves, grow and expand within our lives.
May we learn something new; add a different dimension to our existence as much as we can.
May we see the good in everything, everyone and let this vision light our path when we are surrounded with darkness. May we remember that we hold the key; we hold that light within ourselves that will illuminate our path.
May we expand the love, the goodness within ourselves to the communities we live in.
May we inspire ourselves, be what we were initially intended to be and with this, may we be an inspiration to the ones around us!
May we never forget that, it was our decision to be on this planet, within this body, to be alive today… And may we cherish life with this reality, living our truth!
May we be surrounded by people who really sees us and honestly cherishes our existence in their lives, laughs with us, guides us through life with lightness, challenges us to grow, with their mere existence picks us up when we fall, uplifts our soul with their insights, hears us even when we are not talking, chooses their words wisely with good intention, appreciates peaceful silences, and most of all looks into our eyes with all their nakedness, without fear, with all their honesty, with all their hearts. May we be surrounded by loving eyes and loving hearts!
And me… I am a happy soul and so grateful for what was bestowed upon me. Life has been very generous and I see myself surrounded with beauty… I am not the woman that I used to be anymore… These past couple years have pushed me to my limits and when it blossomed all I was left with was simply “me”… So, I decided to live my reality… Make my dreams become my reality and since then, every day I breathe life in with appreciation. Today I am much more than I have ever been and with a wondrous heart, I welcome 2015!
Happy new year to all!!!!

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expectations

One of my struggles for the last few years has been about the concept of “expectations”. I used to think that my actions took place with no expectation at all, of which I was acting with the mere idea of doing it, that I had to act that way because it made me feel good. I thought I was not expecting much in return but what I didnÔÇÖt realize was that, my expectations were in a more subtle form. It was not to get a physical payback of some sort, but rather the acknowledgement and the appreciation of my behaviors.

Although I choose to believe that these paybacks were somewhat the replies that I did deserve, at one point, I had to face the ugly reality that this need for appreciation, understanding, and empathy was weighing me down. Nobody is going to give us what we need unless we turn back and look at ourselves… With no judgment, accept the being that we are, as is.

My tool for this realization has been through yoga. There is no competition in yoga… Your only rival is yourself and you cannot evolve, go further unless you accept your limitations. Respect them and slowly test your limits with that awareness. This awareness has shifted in me during my teachers training. Within this process, in time, I have started not to expect anything more than my body can deliver, but instead just be present and listen to my body. Give my 100 percent in the action as not the outcome but the feeling of the motion uplifted me, keeping me in the moment, now, where my body is grounded, diving into a deeper understanding of where I stand on this earth. The fight within my being has somehow diminished and the postures slowly found life within my body.

Then I realized that the same questioning was valid in my daily life… Getting to know myself has made me realize that I love to give in life. No matter if the person in question appreciated my action or not, I was going to offer something from me any way. That is what uplifts me. The real question is to what extend we should be willing to give. Where do we draw the line?

My wise teacher/friend has once told us that ÔÇťyou should give out as much as you take inÔÇŁ. Finding sources that you could be yourself and experiencing your truth freely feeds you and then you start to give more in life, to life. So, my guess would be, as long as you are in touch with your true self, hopefully one could be aware of this thin line where giving becomes a sacrifice from the self. And honestly, out of experience, I can say that… I donÔÇÖt know, and not knowing is somewhat refreshing… It keeps the hope for the future… This way or another it carries the potential of happiness in the end.
And on this journey, I have realized that the present moment do not have any space for expectations. So work on that, may your tool be yoga, running, painting, cooking or writing… Find a place that you are present in the moment and in times you feel disconnected, go to that place of meditation un clogged┬á with thought as much as you can and drop your expectations, cherish your limitations and flourish!

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